Nht now I am 22 so its been quite a long time sihen, BUT, I am probably even more fused than I was before. I sider myself straight, but I still feel a strong attra to pictures of attractive guys, and I also enjoy talking to gay or bisexual guys online. I have went as far as to roleplay and have sexual phone chats with some of them.
Now if I was gay or bisexual I would be ok with it, but the problem is, I don′t feel quite like that. For starters, I don′t like dicks- I hate to look at them, let alone have one in my. I don′t like looking at pletely naked guys, it turns me off. I just dont like it. Also, even tho roleplaying and chatting online is fine, I would probably not do anything with a guy in real life. Some time ago a guy from a class I was in tried to seduce me- asking me if I had a girlfriend OR boyfriend, and toug my hair a lot- and it really freaked me out. I felt very unfortable. Also, my sexual dreams are still about women, and I ′t imagine myself having aional relationship except with a girl.
So, at the end of the day, I just don′t know what the fuck is happening with me. Am I straight, and curious, or bi, or maybe I just never got over my low self esteem issues and that’s why I still keep looking at hot guys and imagining I am them?
Plz help! This is driving me insane!
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maybebi says:
August 22, 2011 at 9:01 am
I see a lot of myself in that, Ethan. I was a chubby kid, I always wao look like those underwear models with their smooth ripped chests and abs. And yeah, I jerked off imagining I really looked like that. You’ve got a big advantage over where I was at 22, though ― you know you’re definitely straight. (If you’re not attracted to guys in person ― even guys who look like those pictures ― then it really doesn’t sound like you’re bi.)
Sounds like you want a way to get past that attra to (pictures of) guys. One rule that I’ve found really really clear about a guy’s sexual appetite: Getting off