when I could. Then I got my first real girl friend and was with women since.
I am now 34 and this is all ging for me so quick. My best friend for 3 years has always joked about being with a guy but never has. He always said he is straight and not gay. About a year ago he started grabbing and toughing saying it was funny to see the shoy face. At first it freeked me out almost every time he did this. But last summer I noticed I really liked it when he played with me like this. I noticed that I started to think more and more about him in a sexual way. Last august I found myself jag myself while thinking about him and wao have sex with him the ways I have heard guys having sex. I soon realized I was really falling for this guy yet I have never fell fuy in my life.
I finally sat down and talked to him last October and asked him if he was gay or bi. He said he wasent. I waited a week and asked him again telling him to be hohis time, he asked why and I told him how I felt. Told him how I dream of him and my feelings. He looked at me and told me he felt the same things but we do that, we are not gay. He told me that guys feel like this but we ot do anything about it.
I have spent months trying to uand. I look at guys and yes some turn me on, but nothing like him. I have not done anything with a guy yet, I know I could but there is a part of me that just wants him. We are still best buds, we both play grab ass now. we joke around a lot about who is going to do what and so on. I know as Christians him and I believe in the bible, and though we are told this is wrong I t find where it says that except not to and anal. In the end I think we will just be the 2 lonely guys that never are always together but never do anything.
I know I left a lot out of this and all and made it short. I just felt a o share my story after reading the others that I found here.
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maybebi says:
January 13, 2010 at 8:46 am
Hi Jacob! Close f